The Door Is Open. Now Walk

I can only show you the door

Even open it for you

But you have to go in

I am simply a guide

Nothing more

I believe in you more than you do

I don’t know your unique skills and attributes

But I know you can unleash them upon the world

Fear, apathy, depression, the demons hold you back

Instead of sprinting into the door before I even open it

You are still hesitant

You worry about money

Women

Status

What your family and friends will think

It’s natural of course

The tribe always worried about it’s kin

What they would think or do

It is for survival

Now in the modern day you have to worry about what you would think

Not your boss, your mom, your sibling

Make some money on the side until you have enough to quit

Leave the country if you have to since everywhere else you can live like a king

Meet a woman to take with you wherever you go

None of this is supposed to happen overnight

Of course there are some cases where it will

I know plenty of people with enough saved up who just won’t do something different

“This gets old. Tiring. I don’t want to be a banker. Life is more than drinking and partying.” Then back to it that night at the earliest

Well trained hamsters if you ask me

So much here to do

The best is usually for free

Visit the beach

A mountain

Nature is your friend

Awaken thyself more

Write things down

Write down the three thoughts that trap you the most

Then write the opposite of each one

Notice everything to break out of the mental prison you are in

It has been hardwired into you since birth

The system is all messed up now

At one point, you could just make a single income and have a house 2 car garage and 2 kids and be perfectly happy

Now you can barely afford a nice apartment

Tough times indeed

Well what are you going to do about it?

Crawl around in the old system?

Complain about it with Jake from marketing?

Drink your coffee that tastes days old while you fat loser boss tells you about 10 meetings you have to attend

Have you forgotten why you are here?

It’s to be free

Fight for your freedom

In a bad relationship

Break up

Bad job

Quit

These things aren’t actually hard

You just think they are

You need to take more risks

Way more

Like you did as a child

You also laughed more back then didn’t you?

Until the crushing debt, sexless relationship, and the dread took over

Just because some of you don’t just go sit at the bar drinking Piss Lite while watching the game, doesn’t mean your awake

You are just more awake then the rest

I’m only at an 8 -9 out of 10 on that scale

Some people looked like they were hatched from an egg

My parents were both out of the box

I saw everyone else in the box

Even joined them at some points

Was like this box sucks and burned it down

Pissed people off

Others loved me

IDGAF what they all think

They aren’t here

They aren’t alive

I’m sure if you are reading this you have awoken from them mud and are looking around

Escaped the first cave at least

That’s a great start

Now what will you do?

Write one bold action you’re going to take this week

No matter how small

Commit to it

For me I thought I could just stop smoking weed and it would all fall into place

In some ways it did

In others it didn’t

I got myself

Myself was damaged, not broken

I’ve had to sit with the thoughts and stillness that I avoided for so long

Now I can begin reintroducing new adventures back in

It’s like when you fast and you start with small foods

I can revisit old things too which will look completely different

When I go the old demons may appear but they poke at me for a bit but my armor has grown more resilient

So has my mind

I know all my thoughts aren’t true

My fantasies never come the way I think they will

Day dreaming less

Doing more

Sometimes doing nothing at all is more

That’s when the inventions are made

You were made to discover

Like Newton did gravity

Like Columbus did America

You were meant to create

Like Michelangelo

You were meant to love

Like Casanova

You weren’t built to consume nonsense on social media

Tik tok is rotting your brain

IG

FB

X

If you aren’t using them for a specific reason

Delete them now

I never watch the news yet get told about all the important stuff happening

Just enough news

It’s perfect

My mind isn’t overwhelmed with the world

Because I don’t hear about it

Just give me a few headlines a week

I’ll pray for them

Then I will move on

I won’t get lost in women, nights out, drugs, drinking, vacations, nights in

Nothing will get in my way

Not even myself anymore

I’ve reset my brain

I’ve put in boundaries for myself and others

You could inject with with oxymorphine

And I would be fine tomorrow

I would just enjoy the drug like I enjoy writing this

If I feel lost, confused, or irritated

I take some time to myself for an hour or so

Then I feel the best I’ve felt all day after

See I never wanted to feel “bad”

I wanted to just feel good all the time

That makes sense

But I didn’t know if you just waited a bit

The bad goes away and you feel amazing

Instead, I would run from it then feel awful for days, weeks at a time

But I had no clue

The feelings are your true guide

If you feel constant dread, apathy, depression, anxiety

Then you must change

That is simply demonic energy and a low vibe state

Humans weren’t meant to live that way

Now more do than ever before

It becomes familiar and spreads like a cancer

Your brain releases dopamine every time you play victim to your circumstance

It’s how you just barely survive

None of this is new info

But our brains fall back into old patterns

Mine can be rage and anxiety

Those two have drastically gone down that sometimes I don’t recognize me at all

I say this must be my true self

I used to spiral around certain emotions just to feel something

Now I can pump my own state with doing shit just like this

Sometimes it’s easier than other times

I won’t give up because going back to the void simply make me ill

I don’t resonate or identify with it

I only identify with the present

With fun

With creation

With joy

With life

Everything else is cut off

I’ll add certain things back in

There is a time and a place for everything

If you do anything daily it becomes boring

Or if it’s like exercise it becomes discipline

Either switch the exercises up

Or enjoy one so much you can do it everyday for the rest of your life

Learn to enjoy chores

The mundane

The quiet

Learn to enjoy the calm chaos

Not the crazy one

Don’t let the screens, people, events, or drugs make you overstimulated

You will fry your body and brain

Some never come back

Some have been sober for years and still aren’t even close to any level of awareness

It is almost scary how few people are even awake yet aware

But don’t worry about them

The tech will keep them in line

The trump bucks

The drugs

The distractions

They are no more than bugs

Usually less

Bugs don’t have critical thinking

While we do

So if you critically think like a bug

You are actually less than a bug

What do you do with bugs?

Poison them

Smack them

That is what the system is doing to everyone

Slowly to make them sick

To rely more on the system

Being fat is fine

Don’t worry about exercise

Here take these drugs to fix yourself

Quick fixes

It’s demonic

They employ the 7 deadly sins daily on everyone

Once you are more aware, then you don’t have to worry about it at all

I could drink a jar of canola oil, get 1 hour of sleep, take 7 meds and still function better than most

That’s how you know you are the one

The one to beat the system

To make it

Optimizing is fine when you are already optimized

Give yourself a boost

Your daily caffeine does nothing

My daily valium just keeps me stable

Until I can reduce it to nothing or small amounts

Our brains are just used to it

Unfortunately for me if I don’t take it I can have seizures

You can quit weed and coffee cold turkey

I’ve quit many drugs cold turkey

This one has to be reduced over years

Been reducing it for years

It is what it is

All I know is that anything is possible

I was dealt one of the best hands in life and almost squandered the whole thing

If you were born here you were dealt the best hand too

My mom clawed her way from Africa all the way to the top

It was hard as shit

I won’t experience anything like that

Too bad

I thought all this was hard

It was of course

But nothing like that

And that’s okay

We all have different prisons we built

What tools will you use to escape?

Until next time,

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