The 60/40 Split

I can do whatever the fuck I want now

Last year I was still a boy

60/40 boy to man ratio

Now I’m 60/40 man to boy ratio

About 20% improvement

By this time next year I’ll be 80/20 split

Which is about to as close to perfect as you can get

Ever heard of the 80/20 rule?

That’s this

There is still a lot of room for improvement

I started singing recently

My ex showed me my voice

One of her parting gifts

I used to get high and sing too high

Now I am sober and sing just right

Everything is becoming more effortless

There are some tough ass days don’t get me wrong

Writing can really take you places you didn’t know you needed to go

I wrote letters to my best friend, my aborted child, maybe my brother next

I wrote him one that I never sent

It doesn’t matter as I got it down

I felt the feelings flow through, I don’t drown them out

My friend was doing whippets yesterday and I had been craving them all day

Just another test

It’s not like I can’t ever do certain things again

I just can’t let them do me

I’m not ready to do anything until the foundation is rock solid

What is my intention?

Why am I doing this?

Is it to escape?

Is it to connect?

It it to ground me?

Even healthy escapes are no good

Using the gym to connect your mind, body, and soul are

I don’t feel that right now

The gym is trendy and everyone and their retarded grandma can be in there

Been there since I was 8

Didn’t see any other 8 year olds in there

Probably too busy licking their own shit

That’s what I was doing for so long too

Even though I thought I was the shit

Because I was

I hung around some people who were better than me

But mostly those who weren’t

Now I can learn from all of them

If they aren’t matching my vibe better or not

They I don’t need to tune in

They just all do what they think they should do

Go to their soul sucking job

Come back to the horrible wife

Drink or get high

Or even go workout

Come in and now that everyone sucked them dry they collapse into themselves

And it’s all the fault

Well 80% at least

Society has brainwashed them

They have let themsevles be brainwashed

They do nothing with intention

I’ve played all those games

I beat everyone

I’m too competetive

You could never beat me

I’d die before that

Or simply say eh I didn’t even try

Which is true

My whole life I barely even tried

Or I tried too hard

Now I don’t give af about trying

I’ll do what I please when I please

My energy will attract the right people

And I’ll make the retarded bug people feel so good when they go back to the shit they will wonder why tf they are eating it

Most won’t ever get it

But every interaction I have they will mirror me

That way I don’t have to avoid them all the time

And if I don’t feel like talking I won’t

Unheard of for me but I mean more small talk

Fuck your small talk; medium or else

Pleasantries are fine

We won’t be talking about sports, politics, or religion unless we have a common ground to do it on

My mom and I can talk tennis because she’s a pro

My best friend and I can talk politics/history because he knows more than anyone else

My Godmother and I can talk religion

We can all agree or disagree with civil discorse

Feel heard and let them feel heard

My best friend and I can talk everything

My brother can help me understand my other side

The side I let slip when he was born

I was so jealous it consumed me

I let everything consume me at one point or another

There were brief pockets of creation and peace

Now there is only creation and peace

Organized chaos

Not fabricated nonsense

Deeper connections than ever before

I’m enjoying every moment- good or bad

I’m letting my body process all the slop I inhaled or consumed

Letting it get back to baseline as much as I can

There is no rush

I’m not racing against everyone else

I don’t need to travel

I don’t need to go down the river on MDW weekend

I don’t need to go to the gym because joe gayass blow on X said so

I’ll get fresh air and sunlight when I need it

I’ll eat nourishing foods everyday

I’ll keep in mind and if I slip

Oh fucking well

I’m not white knuckling life anymore

I’m preparing myself instead of bracing for impact

Finding myself

I’m getting ready for the future

The one I always imagined in the future

It’ll come when the war is over

We are in WW3 right now

They use chemical warfare, tech, isolation, drugs, fearmongering, and have things more powerful than any nukes that could blast this planet in a second

If they do oh well

If they don’t oh well

The future is bright

Utopic/dystopic

We are lucky enough to be here to see it

It will move fast

We won’t recognize shit 5 years from now

10 will be a whole nother world

15 will be a new galaxy

A lot will be done via the tech first

Then we can do all that shit physically

In the meantime its best to mourn the old world

It was simpler but it is now time to move on

We won’t ever get the 90s back

No need to

We move forward with grace

Our brains can barely understand it but they will download a patch into our heads one day

They do it now so why wouldn’t they then

You won’t even know likely

Good luck running

They will find you

On a cabin in the woods

Underground bunkers Doomers

No one can escape it

You can run for maybe 20 more years

Maybe

But I doubt even that long

So instead use it to your advantage

Don’t let it use you

Don’t let it consume you

Start any venture you want

WTF are you doing?

Watching soyflix?

Listening to some broad talk about her nails

Hanging with the boys who are so dumb you can’t even understand them

The future can bring us together

So can it now

Use social media to bring you together

Most do the opposite

Go out to connect and forge new experiences

Not to escape or find bitches for the night

You don’t need that

Not if your here with me

If not you may need that tbh

You may not have enough experience

You need to go get it before the world changes

You still have time young blood

The rest who know deep down they have had what they wanted

Now what do you really want?

Now is the time to slowly figure it out

Take a year or two

Who cares

Everything will always be there when you get back

Stop chasing so much

Start attracting instead

You truly only get this one life

It’s so precious why do you waste your time on things you hate?

Do you not like them because you monetized it?

Have you monetized anything?

Or do you rely on a company that I likely invest in to make pennies of what you deserve?

Do you like the job because you just do?

That’s all fine

If you just let go everything will come to you

Riches and women and status

What you do with it matters

Don’t let it consume you and you just go on a fuck fest

Or a buying spree

Create something that matters

A family

A business

A family business

Intertwine everything like our ancestors did

Stop saying I need to do it and just do it

Life is damn easy when you just do it

You will have tough days

But it should be the 80/20 rule

80% you should be doing things you like to do

20% could be chores, appointments, meetings, whatever

Enjoy them too

If you can’t stand one like you just hate laundry

Outsource it

Figure it out

It's never been easier

Yet its also never been harder

A distraction on every corner

One in your pocket

But it could be the best tool you ever use?

Like a swiss army knife back in the day

You didn’t just stare at it all day long looking at ass and playing candy crush did you?

If you did I’d love to have your swiss army knife

Now you have weapons in your house

Not the guns or knives or swords

But the tech

WMD

They can consume you

Or you can consume it

What will you do?

I know what I will

If you even see this post

You are that much closer

Until next time,

-BTSC