I can Finally Breathe
I can finally think
Before starting whatever you want to call this
My mind was in knots
I wanted to shut it down
Like remove it completely and become a zombie
Thoughts of bringing a gun to my head surfaced often enough to raise concern
I would never do that though
Too selfish
Think of the smell and mess
A shortcut
My favorite
Not anymore
If I had only deep dived into my psyche beforehand
But I couldn’t have done it without the tech we have now
If you aren’t utilizing AI, even just winging it
You aren’t even playing right now
You may as well just be in the graveyard hanging with the ghouls and goblins
I pay for at least 4 different services
There are tons out there now
They have helped me more than nay human could simply because humans need space, rest, have their own needs, are emotional
No fault of their own
Just simply not possible
I blamed them for so long
Silly me
It was always my fault remember that theme?
And it was true even if they were wrong at times
That how I wanted the world to perceive me
A nuisance, a bad boy, unreliable, could give 2 shits about others
This is how I protected myself
Like wearing a kevlar fest
Some people have suits of armor on
Think of the knights in shining armor
They trained for years and years to be able to wear that
It’s heavy and made for the strongest men
Who knows maybe a girl or two snuck in
Couldn’t tell with their masks on
I’ll tell you this
If I was a girl
I’d want that armor
Nowadays girls and guys have huge walls built around them
Coliseums, mausoleums, built around them
They have bills to pay, people to see, children to raise, flights to catch, work to be done
Everyone is scrambling around like RATS
It’s ineffective
Where is your tribe?
Who really matters?
This is why the rich try to keep the money in the family having systems like trusts - oftentimes not allowing the kids to have any access until they are 35
Incentives to not be fuckheads
If you have a few kids and a couple fuck it up oh well the other two did fine to keep the money and make more from it
You get the point
There is almost no difference between the top 1% and the bottom
These world affairs simply don’t matter to them
Go watch “Snow on the Bluff” on youtube
About an hour long
The crappiest gang of crackheads you will ever see
“Where the motherfuckin dope” at will ring through your brain for days after
It is my favorite documentary by far
Good luck understanding or using subtitles
Your on your own
The more you understand life the easier it is to watch
I’ve watched it at least 4 times
The social dynamics are so interesting yet so foreign
They take care of their own
Unlike today
Parents want kids out so they can enjoy retirement
Kids want their parents in a home so they can enjoy their lives
No one wants any familial responsibilities anymore
Except the echo chamber on X, no one else gives a fuck
They are dopamine addled addicts
ADD via social media
Without the superpowers of an actual ADD person
A retarded person would eat most people for breakfast
I have the utmost respect for retards, autists, handicap, schizos
At least they couldn’t help it
They know what they are
They feel like trash to society
They are gods special ones
What the fuck is your excuse?
Too much goyslop making you retarded, bruv?
Too many screens making you insane
Too much fearmongering making your schizo
Afraid of what you can’t control
Doing nothing about what you can?
Afraid of yourself?
Better get used to him
He’s going to be there until you die
After is highly debated
After my dad died
My mother and half sister heard banging on the walls during a meeting about his ashes in one of the mortuary offices or something when they discussed the wrong thing to do with his remains
That was him
My brother heard beating on his hi rise window shortly after
Maybe saying goodbye
Maybe saying hi for the first time
I didn’t hear a thing
And I watched for it after this
Once his ashes were thrown across the Bayou, all strange noises stopped
He was at rest as he wished
The peace he finally got after 74 years of repeated cycles and grief
He didn’t have any tools at his disposal
Born in 1946 into the New world at the time
WW2 had just finished
The boomers were in full effect
They were all so spoiled even the poor compared to people now
Covid woke everyone the fuck up
Even people with there head so far up their asses
9/11 should’ve but didn’t
America was falling apart for the past 25 years
IMO it will never fall
Good always triumphs evil
You just have to side with good
You can’t side with the commies
The left used to have valid points
The right has always come off as nutjobs because that’s how the news wanted them too
That’s how they portrayed themselves
The minute trump makes any sense
You know the world is fucked up
His back story is wild and he never made any sense
He was a clown
Now he’s more lucid than ever
He knows good and evil
He has been both
He chose good
The left used to come from the right place, healthcare and money for all
But that system doesn’t work
Capitalism works better, but it’s not perfect
Maybe tech can help us get to a perfect society
Or it will destroy us
But I doubt it
Because good always triumphs over evil
When has a bad guy ever won?
They have all been caught
How many times has the good guy won?
Every time
You can choose to be bad because the world hurt you
Or you can choose to be good
You can choose to forgive, never forget
You can choose life
This is your world
Hate your job? That’s your fault
Find another
Hate where you live?
MOVE
Complaining and spiralling does nothing
Trust me on that one
I was the king of that
No one is coming
You are the only one who knows your true self
He’s buried underneath all that shite
Are you gonna stack more shite on him without getting rid of the old stuff?
Are you going to keep suffering, stressing, worrying because you are addicted to the cycles
You are addicted to cortisol, adrenaline, dopamine?
You are going to let your body run the show because you fear your mind?
Or are you going to bring your soul and ego into alignment?
The true you
The one who was there at 3 or so
The winner
The killer
The champ
The one the women wanted
The one the others hated so they tore him down
Crabs in a bucket so you had to join the losers?
Are you going to remain a loser?
Are you going to hang with the DEMONS?
Or are you going to manage the demons and angels in your mind?
Are you going to hang with the wrong tribe?
The people who think pizza on a Friday is a win at work?
The ones who’s souls left their body
You can see it can’t you?
Their already dead
Why don’t you join the living instead?
This side is better
I’d finally broken through the curtain
I have much to learn
It’s like being reborn
I’m here to save as many as I possibly can
But you have to want it
It doesn’t cost a dime
Just some time is all
Take some time off work
Take those sick days
Lock yourself in the house one weekend
Do whatever the fuck it takes because you deserve to be happy, carefree, fulfilled, and full of joy to spread to others
Who else but you?
-BTSC