3 Weeks Sober
Finally feeling like myself again
Only been 25 years
The boy who was there before the world showed him it’s true colors
Many people woke up to the “Matrix” in Covid
It’s about damn time
I’ve been here since I was 5
I knew it was all BS
Santa Wasn’t real
Neither was the Easter Bunny
I have always had this almost unhealthy obsession with finding out the truth
This has hurt others along the way
I can be brutally honest
My tone comes off harsh
I seem like an asshole
I’m have moments of Autismo like Sheldon in Big Bang Theory
Why do you think I’ve thrown myself into social dynamics?
To try and understand wtf everyone’s brain is thinking
I have come to the conclusion that most people are legit NPCs
There are NPCs in video games with more dialogue and emotion
Xmas is just a holiday for the corporations to make money
I make tons then
They sell to the women who then play with the children all based on feelings
This is a great thing in many ways
But America got greedy
Greed is one of the 7 deadly sins
We got checked hard the last 5 years for sure
Some people noticed 9/11 was when things were starting to look down for the US
25 years of hard times
No one noticed because hard now was working in an AC office under fluorescent lighting to get a paycheck to go home and feed your family
Pretty damn good compared to over 100 years ago
The boomers got everything and told the Millenials they would get it all too
Unfortunately that wasn’t the case
No two car garage, two kids, with a nice house for the Average Joe now
Now you have to work your ass off for just rent in some places
Remember the Rent is too damn high guy and everyone just laughed
There have been too many signs of a failing economy over the last 25 years
This isn’t a doomer post
No no it’s the exact opposite
Can you see it?
The light at the end of the tunnel
Can you feel it?
The weight is finally lifting
Everyone knows everything was fabricated bullshit
So many conspiracists out there it’s not even cool anymore
It’s all a simulation
Each of our realities are different
If you have ever read Plutos in a Cave Theory or some shit
Once you come out of that cave and see the sun you just realize you in a bigger different brighter one
That’s where anyone with a brain is now
The zoomers get too much shit
They see the world for what it really is
Tate showed them almost to a fault
The millennials have all been through so much they are zombies
The boomers are becoming old and bitter
The funny thing is you can choose how you want to feel
I look at all of this and laugh saying finally everyone sees what I do
Now some take the blue pill and shove it so far up their ass so they don’t have to see the world for what it is
Some see the world and become jaded and bitter
This is all wrong
If you feel the veil has been lifted
Now you have the freedom that many generations didn’t have before us
You can make apps, websites, create more with AI in a day than ever before
You can instantly start a online business today
You can write until your finger fall off
Everyone has a computer nowadays
They just use it to watch porn, doomscroll and be total fucking idiots
They are consumers
Most people never make it past this
Eat the feelings
Smoke the feelings away
Drink the feelings away
Even run the feelings away
Work the feelings away
Well guess what
One day usually when people retire, they now notice all their feelings over the last 50 years or so have piled up
It’s like an episode of hoarders
They never stopped to look around and see the rainbow
Too busy chasing the cheese like a rat
The almighty dollar is worshipped here in America
A false god, an idol, a heretic
Everyone is so gd spoiled now
You can literally just wake up and watch soyflix, have girls delivered to your house like netchicks, and you can have food delivered too as well as any other shit you can possibly desire
This has killed our inner conquerer as men
Women had to take over and they resent us for it
They ultimately want to stay with the children
The kids make no sense and neither do they
Perfect who better to watch them
The men are far too logical often times scaring the women off
This is great for dominating an industry or understanding spreadsheets
But it kills that inner child, that playful energy
You can learn a thing or 2 from the women and children
I see how they interact
They understand just because Santa isn’t real doesn’t mean you can’t pretend
Use your imagination fellas
Use it to invent
To discover
To conquer
To influence
To help
To be a man
Shield the women and children from all hurt as much as you possibly can
If you are hurting them, you have work to do
Take on their stress and angst
You are designed for it
You matter, but not as much as you think
The kids matter
They are the future
They can be taught how to deal with things as they travel along lives pathways
We see this with well adjusted kids from good backgrounds
Not too rich
Not too poor
They have a youthful playful vibe about them at all times
Until they need to get things done
The more naive the women and children are for as long as possible the better
The boys can be shown the ways of man, but carefully
Not too young
But not too old either
The girls need to be shown the way of a woman
Something I cannot do but can help with
They need to be protected at all costs
Men used to die in the battle fields while woman died in child bearing
The ones who didn’t made it all the way to us right now
Either by pure luck or grit or both
The fact you are alive at all is impressive
Saturday’s used to fill me with dread as the bug people came out
Now I’m filled with delight
No day matters to me
It’s all the same
Time doesn’t matter to me
Nothing matters to me except my writing, reading, connecting, moving, listening, and being present
I love creating and inventing new things
I’m the mad scientist I always wanted to be as a child
Supplements everywhere, peptides in my system
Creating new combinations of each to introduce to my body and mind
Creating new apps and websites with AI that fail over and over
I've failed more times than I can count
It’s freeing
Failure is the best feeling ever
That means you aren’t done yet
You have to keep going
The moment everything is too perfect
That’s when it all goes wrong
I used to strive for perfection because then I thought I could have peace
The only way to have peace is by being able to be alone with your thoughts
Last Saturday I stared out the window for an hour
The monks can pray for 8 hours
So my goal is 8 hours
I probably will fail
That’s what makes it fun
That way I never get to it and will never stop staring
Now a more tangible goal of saying running 3 miles straight
Yes that’s a good goal but then you want 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
Where do you draw the line in the sand?
Same with the doomers or people who obsess about microplastics and 5g
There is nothing you can do but move out to the middle of no where
You will still be alone in your head
And good luck finding a ER if anything happens
You will be just as fucked as you are now if not more so
People always moving and running into their late 30s
Will never understand true peace
You eventually need to settle
Your not a Indian hunting the buffalo
Your running from yourself
99% of people will never feel how I do
I wish they could as the world would be a much better place but alas
If I can help even just one you of that’s a win
I would like to help everyone on earth but I am just one man
I need your help to do so
I need you to get as much experience in your 20s as possible
Cruise into your 30s like a Jet fighter
know when to let the gas off the pedal by then
Stop repeating the same cycles of nonsense
That’s the true definition of insanity
I’ve been insane my whole life
I will be insane in some ways until I die
But I will not repeat the same cycles over and over again
I will not be coerced to do stupid shit
I will never stop until my last breath
I will never give up
If I fall, I will pick myself up instead of spiralling
Now is the time
Before the tech gets too advanced and sucks you into a Utopic world
Remember that will be a simulation too
Everyone watches TV every night
They soon will be in the metaverse
It will be normal in 10 years
Maybe they will inject you with a serum to forget your trauma, to become who you really are
But I doubt it
They want you dumb and numb
That way you can’t do anything but consume
Lining their pockets more
As the person inside of you, no matter how deep he is
Screams until you wake up or screams your whole life until your dead
It’s your choice if you want to become the person you always were
He is still there
He wants to be seen and heard
He is destined for greatness
Stop his suffering
Endure the pain
As they say “No pain, no Gain.”
Eventually it becomes easier like lifting a weight 10lbs is light then 20lbs then 30lbs until you reach the max level of weight
It’s a good pain
The emotional, physical, and mental pain is there to remind you you are human
It keeps your present and grounded
You need to manage the pain better
That’s it
Once you do that you won’t ever truly suffer again
You will be the boy you once were with the will and might of a man
Truly unstoppable in any venture you take
Unrecognizable to yourself and others
You can wait to do this
Or you can start right now
Until next time,
-BTSC